Sunday, August 14, 2022

"After all this time?" "Always."

 "After all these time?"

"Always."

These lines, are, nonetheless, one of the famous lines from Harry Potter franchise, which hold a deep meaning behind. A rather touching, heartfelt moment, especially when it was perfectly interpreted and presented on the big screen by one and only Alan Rickman. 

I remembered the tears came rolling down my cheek when I was watching and realized that I wasn't the only one who sobbed silently in the cinema. Although I had read the book beforehand, with the knowledge of what was going to happen next, it still hit me hard. Thanks to the actor as I said, to bring the character into life. 

Sudden news of his passing 6 years ago, made my heart sank. Again, another great artist had left us. He will always be remembered as a man full of wisdom, generosity and kindness. 

I thank God that He let me had the opportunity to witness the marvelous work of this man before his passing. It was indeed, precious to me. 

Immortal isn't everything

But the traces that you left 

will be the eternities

Always



Friday, September 18, 2020

Soaring High In The Sky


Thanks to the Wright brothers for the invention of airplane, which allows the future generations to have a glimpse of the beauty of the sky. 

I personally like to observe the clouds in their various forms. Sometimes , it seems like they are in a form of statues or sculptures, which is trying to tell mankind an ancient story. It helps to trigger your imagination on how the story should go. How fascinating.

Again, this is the wonder of nature. Spare some time, sit back, observe and savour every moment with mother earth. 


Friday, July 24, 2020

The Tranquility




The Nature 
Embraces all kinds of emotion
A way which God allows The Nature to speak for itself

Wild thunder storm, the symbol of anger 
Hot, blazing summer, instills the languorous feeling 
Chilling and rainy day, represents the sadness and loneliness
Bitter cold winter, brings up the emotion of hopelessness and in need of reliance 
The cheerfulness of spring, bringing joy and hope 

Behold, the glorious sunset 
The calmness that it brings 
The tranquility 
That carries away the anguish, worries and anxiousness
And engulfs them into the darkness
When the sun starts to rise
It is, again, a new page of life diary




Sunday, July 19, 2020

The Men I Admired, Now and Forever

When people ask me, is/are there anyone who had biggest impact in your life? The answer is yes. And there are , always, two of the men, great artists in this modern world, who had somehow taught me a lot, more about life lessons than the art itself. This post is dedicated to one of them. 

Honestly, I am not a person who likes to chase after a star or pay much attention on the entertainment industry. Till that very day, 25 June 2009. The day, when the brightest star that had ever shined on earth, had vanished. I still remembered how everyone in the class was talking about the news of the passing of this Superstar. They might not be a fan of his music or artistic works, but the news was kind of shocking. It even caused a stir in the media all over the world, be it on newspapers, televisions, or radios.

His name was known in every corner of the world, every continent. I did not know any of his music before then. All I know was, this man was enormous, had done amazing dance move like moonwalk (which I vividly remembered my dad taught me how to do the moonwalk when I was a kid). Witnessing how the world reacted to the news, it made me wanted to find out how could this man cause such a sensation.

Since that day, I started to watch his videos, did some reading on his background, his music career and the achievement that he had accomplished. I was astounded, literally, by everything about him. His dance moves were mesmerizing, as if, his body was meant to be built to be a perfect dancer, so smooth and flawless. His songs, would bring out every kind of emotion in you: sometimes they made you wanted to dance to the rhythm; sometimes, they brought tears; sometimes, it showed you the light when you hit the bottom. He was a professional performer, who knew how to catch the audiences' heart, to amaze them with mind-blowing stage performance. He was and is and will always be the true king in music industry, who broke the racial barrier and he was the pioneer who redefined music videos. His innovation had laid down the path for the future artists. 

Throughout the years, the media had made this man a weirdo in public eyes, despite his contribution to the music industry and his countless humanitarian works that showered the earth. What made me amazed the most, was his humanity and his charity works. Honestly, I fell for him, was mainly because of his kindness and what he had done for the children of the world. I could not believe, how the media could distort the reality and made people believed all the rubbish that had been written.

At that moment, I felt sorry for him. And I started listening to his music. All of them are the songs written with his heart and soul. He wanted to convey the message of love and peace through his masterpiece. And never did he take the credit of his creativity, but he attributed it to God, the Almighty.

“Well, the songwriting process is something very difficult to explain because it’s very spiritual. It’s, uh…You really have it in the hands of God, and it’s as if it’s been written already – that’s the real truth. As if it’s been written in its entirety before were born and you’re just really the source through which the songs come…”

“Heal The World”, “We Are The World”, “Man In The Mirror”, “What More I Can Give”, "Earth Song", "Black or White", The Lost Children" and many more, are the songs written and touched the hearts of the world. He sang those songs with all his hearts, savored them with all the emotion and love. He once said,

I don’t sing it if I don’t mean it.”

And I believed that this is true.

And yes, he loved children and he wanted to share his love and his fortune with them. Growing up in a family of 9 siblings, living in small house in Gary, Indiana with merely 2 bedroom. It was a norm for him to share beds and room with his brothers in that tiny house. He wasn't born with silver spoon in the mouth. Tears started to roll down my cheeks when i read the book written by his mother Katherine, "My Family, The Jacksons". The tough moments the Jackson family had to experience before their names came to light of the world.  It was the hard work and sacrifice that the family had to make to become what they are today. Forgetting the play time, it was all about practice, practice and practice, all started from the age of 5. His act of kindness also started since he was young, where he would buy candies and give them to the children at his neighborhood. When he was at the height of his fame, he built a Neverland with theme parks, water parks, mini zoo, cinemas, not for his own sake, but was to open up for those kids with illnesses, with disabilities to come in and enjoy the moment of joy which they could never have in their lives. Everything was free of charge. And yet his generosity and naïve act had also brought him the biggest humiliation of all, the ridiculous accusation of child sexual abuse. There is a reason why I labelled it ridiculous as I had done my reading on the court proceeding on the charges he had faced. The  contradictory statement by the accusers and witnesses made the jurors shook their heads and brought light to them who was the real victim.  He was found not guilty of all charges. There is no need for me to explain further, everyone with a heart will feel the same. And yet, after 10 years his passing, there are still people who made such an accusation to make profit out of it.  

"Lies run sprint. Truth runs marathon."

And there are still a lot of scandals surrounding this man. People did ask me, why do you like a person full of controversy. It is because I chose to see the good things that he had done rather than all the unproven garbage written by the media. Skin bleaching? Yeah, if there is a skin bleaching technique, where are all the girls who always wanted to keep their skin smooth and fair. This guy had a skin disease called vitiligo which later proven by the autopsy report. And this truth will never appear on the news before his passing. Hey, he is a pedophile. Yeah, please do your research on how FBI had investigated this man for years and came out with 300+ pages of FBI file with no proof on he was instead a pedophile that had molested a child. This man walked out of court house as free man after the judge announced that he was found not guilty of all charges. And yet, the journalists and public who just sat in front of the TVs, thinking they were more superior than the FBIs and judges, decided to label him as guilty. 

People may ask, " You don't even meet him in person, talked to him. How do you know what you perceiving is right?" And that is the greatest part. Yes, i don't meet him in person, but the vibe that he is projecting could be felt, not only by me, but by millions and touches the hearts of the wounded. I might not be great in other things, but i will never be wrong, in perceiving who is good, who is bad. Till this age, I was never wrong.  

The reason I wrote this and kept in my blog, is for me to show someone that I loved, friends and families, the reason he is the only star that I admired and will stop teasing me. I will never idolize someone or be a crazy fan, but it bothered me to see someone with an angelic heart being deemed as a monster. All he wanted to share is LOVE. It is pure and simple. The world had torn him apart, and he still chose to shower his love back to this world. Even during his last rehearsal for "This Is It" concert, he was still talking about love, mother earth and peace. Even when he was in hypnotic state due to effect of anesthetic medication Propofol, he was still talking about building children hospital (it was heartbreaking while listening to this tape recording). Does it make sense, to say he is a bad guy, a criminal? Elders used to tell me, this world is not as simple as you think. I didn't believe. But now i see. 

For me, He is the angel, who tried to help the children and the world, and was deeply wounded by this corrupted society. He was the one who not just say it but DO IT. He really TOOK ACTION. Most of his good deed was done secretly. Most of us will say, "oh, let us have campaign and raise awareness within the community." After the lengthy speech and making some posts for the newspapers photos, " there you go, this had 'showed' that we 'care'." 

I will never forget the words by Rev Al Sharpton to his 3 children during the memorial in 2009:

"I want his three children to know: Wasn’t nothing strange about your daddy. It was strange what your daddy had to deal with. But he dealt with it…He dealt with it anyway. He dealt with it for us."

And yes, his name is Michael Jackson. He is not just an artist to me. He is a legend, a humanitarian, an angel whose name will shine and last forever. Thank you, God, for bringing such a wonderful human being to this world. And thank you, God, for bringing him back to the heaven, where no one can hurt him anymore. Remember, we always tend to pick the most beautiful flower from the field. He is the most beautiful flower in God's eyes. 

There you stand

Singing and dancing to the rhythm of God 

Sang to the top of your lungs

To spread the message of love and peace

Yet the world had turned a deaf ear on you 

Pierced you with thorns of lies 

You bled, you cried

You stood up 

As resilient as you could be

Continue spreading the love to those in need

Till the very last moment

By claire 15/6/2020

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

My last week at RMH

This is my last week of attachment at RMH. As usual, we had all the morning ward rounds, discussions, and meetings. Observed another pleural tapping.

Here are some photos taken when I was at the hospital. 


Level 5-south wing: This is where the general respiratory medicine ward located. 


Respiratory care unit (RCU): It is a specialized 4 beds unit located in 5 south west. Patients with acute respiratory issues will be managed here. 


The respiratory team is made up of a consultant, a registrar, a resident, a specialized senior nurse and an intern.


I did mention in my previous post that everything is computerized here at RMH. Patients' details could be accessed by authorized medical personnel at every nursing counter at the hospital. It is really convenient. 


The professional medical report session. 



The radiology meeting (every Tuesday) and multidisciplinary meeting for lung ca (every Friday). 

There is also weekly respiratory medicine clinic on Tuesday and lung oncology clinic on Friday. 


Had met awesome people here at Royal Melbourne Hospital. 

From the left: Lucy, Eugene, Me, Nick, Joanne. 

Thanks for the hot chocolate and cakes. Gonna miss them all ! :) 


Royal Melbourne Hospital is a tertiary hospital equipped with high-tech facilities. I would say that the hospital environment and setting is really good for the patients. Medical staffs are dedicated to their jobs.

Saying goodbye is always the hardest thing to do. I will definitely miss the time being here and being with the team. Fabulous moments! The most memorable event in my life. 

THE END.

By the way, having this blog would make my report writing much more easier. Haha ! 

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Clinical elective at RMH (Day 12)

Day 12
We had an enjoyable session with Dr. Lucy today. We had a discussion with her on how to interpret the ABG. That is what I need the most as I always get confused when it comes to interpretation of ABG. Before we started, she served us with her  self-baked chocolate cake. Oh, that was really tasty! Yum! And then she gave us a short lecture on ABG before we practiced it with cases. It didn't take long but I found it to be really useful. 

And not forgot to mention that we came across a patient with giant cell arteritis during the ward round. The reason for the patient to be admitted in respiratory ward was because of her acute onset of shortness of breath and oxygen desaturation. They tried to figure out the causes by ordering further investigation like CTPA (to find out whether the acute SOB was due to clots in the lungs), ABG and others. 

I was being offered the chance to do an ABG. I was quite worried and nervous as I had never done it before. However thanks for the encouragement from Jimmy, Nick and Dr. Lucy, I was ready to give it a try. Unfortunately, when we went to the patient for the procedure, it was already being done by one of the nurses. Oh, may be next time. :) Hope I still have the chance for that. 

Clinical elective at RMH (Day 10-11)

Day 10
Nick and I had a discussion on certain topics. He would like to get himself a little warm-up after being in a relaxed mode for a long period of time. Same goes to me. I think my brain had turned rusty after my third year, being too relaxed throughout my forth year. He was preparing himself for becoming a junior doctor or an intern upon finishing his clinical elective and I should start to prepare for my final. We discussed on myasthenia gravis. Other random topics like multiple sclerosis just set in. Apparently, he knew more than I did. Though we just touched on each topic superficially, I found the discussion was beneficial. I was glad that he had introduced certain useful websites and online question banks to me.

Day 11
Starting from this week, the respiratory team would be taken over by another respiratory physician, Dr Jeremy and also Dr. Nicole, the registrar. And the resident, Dr. Lucy would be joining the team. Dr. Lucy was so kind and helpful. She really tried her best to help us up and to teach us on whatever that came across her mind. I appreciated her effort in coming out with questions for us to ponder on or the other way round. She even offered us her free time to have a tutorial with her. That's great! I am looking forward for that.

During the professional medical report session, the second case had caught my attention as I found that it was quite interesting. It was a rare case of primary choroid plexus lymphoma. In that case, the patient presented with confusion and short term memory defect. There was no other neurological sign and symptom. He was conscious, had a normal gait with no deficit detected in cranial nerves, lower and upper limbs neurological examination. Radiological investigation of the brain (I couldn’t remember whether it was a CT or MRI) showed abnormality in the ventricles. Further investigations then carried out and finally they came out with the aforementioned diagnosis. They even showed the video of that patient underwent mental state examination, which gave us a clearer picture on what was going on.